Mabuk kepayang (sis dayah's favourite phrase)

The situation is just so different now.. no SMS..no call..haiz..

I have to keep myself busy just to forget him for the time being. Although I do admit there will be a point of time where his name will popped into my mind and I’ll be missing him again. Not only that, questions which I believe should not pop into my mind will start haunting me. I will feel sad and unsecured again until my doubts are all answered.

Seringkali…..kata-kata seperti ini membuat aku rasa runsing.. serba salah!

“Jika perjalanan anda saja menuju pernikahan itu sudah dipenuhi noda dosa, khalwat di alam maya, zina hati dan lain sebagainya, bagaimana mungkin anda melihat tanda-tanda kekuasaan ALLAH pada pasangan anda itu, sedangkan anda sedang melakukan maksiat kepada ALLAH?”

Love is just too complicated. How to not get involve in love? I can’t seem to push it away and deny it. The more I try to forget it the more it’s coming towards me.

To you, I hope you do understand why I can’t fulfill some of your wishes. Sometimes it’s really against my conscience to meet you often etc. I want to see you smiling all the times but I can’t go against the Islamic rules set by Him. I do know that you know your limits and so do I but we can’t deny the fact that the evils will keep whispering in our ears to do evil deeds and to play safe I have to avoid meeting you often. How can we reach our goals when we do evil deeds that gain His wrath? How can He fulfill our du’a when we do things that He forbids? We need His Redha, my dear.

So what’s the solution to this? Go for hubungan halal iaitu PERNIKAHAN. But on top of that, we have to be mentally, financially and physically prepared. This is something we can’t gain overnight. It is something we must inculcate through experience. Like what he says, every journey whether it is bitter or sweet is still an experience. Buang yg keruh ambil yg jernih. Yg baik kita buat pengalaman dan yg buruk kita buat pengajaran utk diperbaiki.

Remember Allah is always with us in every journey that we go. So do seek help from HIM =P