Failed my TP test =(

I failed my TP test! YAY! Punya sedih.. i strike a pole while doing my parallel parking. Immediately i feel sad and lost confident. Bwk kereta asal blh but still i manage to accumulate 18 points. lepas tu sampai satu tmpt tu kanan kiri ada kereta park kat side road..so i know i will get another 8 demerit points for this and yes.. the tester said "this is too near".. i just kept my mouth shut. dah fail pun.. so tak kuasa nak ckp bnyk.. after the test, went to the tester room, the tester just asked "how come u strike the pole? U nvr look behind rite? U just look at the rear mirror rite?" dlm hati ckp whatever lah eh. aku tgk blakang cuma aku takle agar bila nak stop tu kereta...by the time i stopped the car, satu pole jatuh.. so cantik lah.. dah lah kene bwk kereta mcm F1. takle lmbt and takle delay when moving off..during prac, i try to go the instructor depress the brake pedal cos he said he is not confident that i can clear fast..bila aku berhenti time test kene demerit points plak..haiz...pe punya nasib.. hopefully i do better for my next test..pray for me k kengkawans..hati tetap sedih..mcm harapun musnah gitu nak pass 1st attempt..pdhal most instructors are confident that i can passed..they even said i have a high chances of passing at 1st attempt...but what can i say? Lulus gagal smue di tanya Tuhan..i can onli usaha...the rest i leave it to Allah (tawakkal). mungkin ada hikmah disebalik ni..cuma kita manusia tidak tahu..i must stay strong! go nisa!